A.M. Wyckid's Erotic Word-Forge

Incubus

Possession is nine-tenths of the law.

Copyright © 2012 by A.M.Wyckid

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Your life sucks if you are fat girl, in a dead-end job, with an abusive boyfriend who takes your money, knocks you around landing you in the hospital, and then sticks you with the bill.

Things start looking up when you realize maybe you really aren't that fat after all, your hair is not as stringy, and your face, that everyone said was beautiful, really is. Then you find out your poker skills are uncanny, and win enough to cover most of your debts. You also realize that you aren't as straight as you thought you were, and your BFF, who is definitely gay, becomes something more than a friend.

So life is good, right?

Wrong!

These changes are happening because you are possessed by a demon. He's called Shuun and he's got you by the short hairs, metaphysically speaking. You are being pursued by criminals who think you know too much, your new girl's in hiding — from you as well as them — and every day brings some new dose of strange that's just hard to take.

You decide, that's just about enough of that crap: when things turn tough, the possessed turn evil!

Length: ~80,000 words

Attributes: B&D, D&S, F on F, Mystical, Sci/Fi, S&M.

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EXCERPT

Prologue

Shuun rose from his pallet and made his obeisances and ablutions before starting on his work for the period. Moving into the circle, he heard the roar of the furnaces in the distance, the hiss of steam entering the manifolds, and felt, in his very soul, the asuria leaving the manifolds and entering the over-sphere, ready to his command. He cleared his mind for the opening rite.

"Six signs for six directions," he intoned, and made the signs while turning to face each of the six ways.

"Five elements for five modes of thought." He ran through each mode while calling forth each element in turn.

"Seven seals for seven gates." He carefully checked each seal, mending flaws and adjusting alignment.

"Four Powers rule the four realms." This line always annoyed him as being mere filler.

"Eight paths connect the eight cities." This one, too, but he would never dare to leave either one out. The very idea of a botched opening ritual made him shudder.

"Three books regulate the three branches of the law." The books were real. He had even touched one of them once, many epochs ago.

"Nine bells for each of the nine tones." He sounded each in turn.

"Two streams of time allow the two ways of acting." He shifted from one to the other and back.

"Ten principles govern all correct forms." More filler. Or was there, ungrasped, some deeper meaning here?

"One self, many manifestations," he concluded, closing the rite. This last line always seemed the key to everything.

The circle hummed with the power of the asuria flowing in its channels forming an energy web that pulsed in tune with Shuun's will.

It is weak, he thought, but it is all I have to work with.

Satisfied that all was in order, he left the circle. It would continue without his attention for some time.

"Klar," he called, summoning one of his shedu. "Bring ska and lemma for my refreshment, and be quick about it."

Shortly, Klar returned with the refreshments. The ska was refreshing. Klar did make good ska, but his lemma was always a little flat. Shith made the best lemma, and Divot was useless in the galley.

"What is on the agenda for this period?" Shuun asked.

"Master. The status of this refuge remains unchanged. No new messages from home."

"New?" Shuun sneered. "You mean, no messages at all. Do you not?"

"Correct, Master. Forgive this unworthy. No messages at all."

"How long has it been?" he muttered to himself.

"Only two point eight one zero three three seven zero two cycles, Master," Klar replied.

"Quiet, you mindless idiot," Shuun snapped. "I was not asking you."

It was true that two point eight cycles was not really a long time, but the mission specification called for an immediate handshake within the first few micro-cycles of interface. Entry into this realm had been accompanied by severe turbulence, and there had been damage. The rest of his brothers remained in stasis. He alone was awake to start the mission and guide the repairs as best he could, waiting for word and help from home that was late in coming.

"Tell me, how many subjects do we currently have?" Shuun asked.

"Forty-five."

"Out of more than fifty-thousand," Shuun muttered.

"Yes," Klar agreed. "The rest have expired. These beings are weak. We are lucky if they last a quarter cycle. We only have the one that is active."

"Do not remind me," Shuun growled. Eno Hoch was a fascinating subject. He was also the only active subject, so perhaps Shuun had made him more interesting than the human deserved. True, the man was functioning in a highly unusual way since the death of his sons. Eno had tracked down the informer who had been responsible for their demise. He had adroitly managed her disappearance against nearly impossible odds. She was important in her context because of her sexual couplings with Major Daecher, and the Major was applying all his assets to find her. Even so, the basement where Eno held Sarohildi Gerber had not yet been found.

It is only a matter of time, Shuun thought. It will be amusing when they do find Eno and his captive.

Since taking the woman, Eno spent as little time as possible on self-maintenance. What time was left he used in three ways. First, the slaughter of his enemies.

They were called 'Nazis,' Shuun reminded himself.

Eno hunted Nazis in the dark streets, and Shuun had given him the tools to be a very effective and elusive killer. The clothing he wore could change hue and configuration at will and shed the fluids and fragments of his victims like nothing known in this context. His weapons were internal until needed, and the man's strength and regenerative powers were well outside the norm. After each encounter, Shuun changed Eno's face, height, and weight to prevent the man's capture.

At first Eno killed en mass, as if he were trying to put an end to himself as well. Now, it was one at a time, slowly, leaving a trail of body parts strewn for blocks and, at the end of the trail, a barely living, but still conscious lump headed for a slow, painful, inevitable death. Sometimes, when they were found by their comrades, they were taken to the hospital, but more often they were delivered a coup-de-grâce. Studying the terror the killings induced in Eno's enemies was the most valuable aspect of this subject. The people whispered of the Dresden Slasher, but no paper dared to print any stories about him.

When not engaged in bloody slaughter, Eno spent a disturbing amount of time staring into space with a profound silence in his head. Micro-cycles sometimes. The silence was irksome because these beings rarely had silence in their heads unless they were drugged or severely injured. Even in their unconscious regenerative state, there was chatter in their minds. It was their most endearing quality as far as Shuun was concerned. It makes them easy to work with.

It did no good to try to shake the man out of these episodes, and Shuun had given up trying. It was best to just let him emerge when he would.

The rest, and majority of his attention, was directed at Sarohildi Gerber. Eno had turned the windowless cellar where he kept her into a torture chamber that would have been the envy of the Inquisition.

Shuun recalled that time fondly. His authorship of Der Hexenhammer via the hand of Heinrich Kramer had created fanatics. The nudge he and given Johannes Gutenberg allowed the book, and thus the fanaticism, to spread far and wide. Those two events had altered this realm greatly. He had been bored, and that book had created the most interesting time for Shuun since their arrival.

Any one of the devices Eno constructed in his chamber of horrors could have ended Sarohildi Gerber's existence, but Eno never went that far. Why not just kill her? Shuun had asked.

"Because then her suffering would end," Eno murmured aloud to himself.

"Master?" Klar interrupted Shuun's reverie.

"What?"

"Do you wish me to continue?" Klar asked. "Our time grows short. Eno stirs and will awake in nano-cycles."

"Continue."

"As you know, there is something about this realm that prevents the drohgh from replicating at normal rates. We have so few that the repairs go very slowly. New damage is occurring all the time. We are not gaining ground. If we do not get help from home soon, we are going to lose operational capability."

"Do you think you are telling me something I do not know, you mental deficient?"

"I consulted the Codex Systemia in the unlikely event …"

"… that I overlooked something," Shuun finished. It was not the real Codex. It was a simulacrum of the actual one. It was supposed to contain all the same syntactic constructs and semantic responses, but much had been lost three cycles ago in the unfortunate events surrounding their arrival. "And?"

"One of the partial sections contains adjustments to drohgh epigenetics for cosm with difficult parameters such as this one."

"I saw the section," Shuun growled. "What of it?"

"There are only a small clutch of parameters …"

"Four thousand and ninety-six parameters," Shuun inserted.

"… we could experiment …" Klar continued, only to be cut off again.

"You over-empowered fool!" Shuun barked, his fury barely contained. "You can not even construct a decent lemma, and now you propose to tinker with drohgh epigenetics?"

"Master. Pardon the interruption," Divot called from beside the circle. "Eno stirs."

Shuun and Klar joined the other two shedu by the circle. In the view floating within, Eno sat up. He threw the bed covers off, revealing the bound form of Sarohildi. Eno had used her sexually once again before going into his regenerative stasis. Shuun was amazed at the many nuanced ways these beings used their procreative act. In this case to express contempt, to harm, and to degrade.

Slap! Eno struck her fleshy middle part with his open grasping appendage and growled, "Get up, you disease ridden whore."

She groaned and quickly rolled herself onto the floor trying to move fast enough to avoid his anger. He seized her and removed her restraints.

"Make me some breakfast and clean this place up. Do it well, and I'll let you go. Do it poorly and today will be the day I kill you. Either way, we're finished today."

He has never done this before, Shuun thought, amazed.

He dipped into Eno's mind to see what was there.

That's hope on her face, Eno thought with glee. Good! I can crush it later, but for now, let it grow.

There was a hammering at the door to the basement. "Gestapo! Open the door!" a voice shouted.

Eno jumped to his feet. Maybe it really will be finished today, he thought.

Shuun prepared himself to aid the man's defense. A scan showed five men at the door, all armed with pistols except for the one with the machine-gun.

Sarohildi sprang for the door. "Help! Help me, please," she shouted, grappling the locks.

Electrical discharge, Shuun thought. I should be able to do that, but the interface is too weak to support it. Then he noticed the glassy look in Eno's eyes and the total lack of thought. Why now? By the abyss that spawned us, why now?

The energy web in the circle shuddered, then wavered, and collapsed. The distant roar of the furnaces was replace by silence. The hiss of the steam descended a ninth and then another as the pressure dropped. The asuria flow from the manifolds sputtered and then ceased abruptly. Coruscating energy slithered along the edges of the circle, and the stench of plasma filled the space.

"It is going to implode!" Shuun cried, forgetting about Eno Hoch and his plight. "Everyone on me. We are going to try for a one-step shutdown." He judged that they had less than ten nano-cycles before implosion. The record, held by the legendary Gothu, for a one-step shutdown was 8.627 nano-cycles. Shuun had once managed 8.891 — simulated. It was going to be close.

* * *

We are not terminated, Shuun thought dimly. I had to try the shut-down, the implosion would have destroyed everything. The furnaces had failed before but never with so little warning. He had ripped open the seals and quenched the flow at the source. Fortunately, none of the likely and disastrous consequences of such an act had come to pass.

"Master. You are injured," Divot explained.

Injured? He assessed his condition. Not good. Not good at all.

"The others?" he asked.

"Klar is terminated," Divot said.

"A pity. Is there any significant damage?" Shuun asked.

"The codices are …"

* * *

Shuun's awareness waxed once again briefly. "… beat Gothu himself," he heard Shith say, with obvious pride.

"By only ten point three pico-cycles, but, yes, he did," Divot responded.

The cover on the regeneration unit clicked closed and he was deactivated.

* * *

Shuun rose from his pallet and made his obeisances and ablutions before starting on his work for the period.

Moving into the circle, he heard the roar of the furnaces in the distance, the hiss of steam entering the manifolds, and felt, in his very soul, the asuria leaving the manifolds and entering the over-sphere, ready to his command. He cleared his mind for the opening rite.

"Six signs for six directions," he intoned, and made the signs while turning to face each of the six ways.

"Five elements for five modes of thought," and he ran through each mode while calling forth each element in turn.

"Seven seals for seven gates." He carefully checked each seal, mending flaws and adjusting alignment. It was a tricky business with so little power.

"Four Powers rule the four realms." This line always annoyed him as being mere filler.

"Three books regulate the three branches of the law." It also bothered him that there was this odd break in the sequence. What about eight?

"Nine bells for each of the nine tones." He sounded each in turn.

"Two streams of time allow the two ways of acting." He shifted from one to the other and back. Had the shift always been that difficult?

"Ten principles govern all correct forms." More reeking filler!

"One self, many manifestations," he concluded, closing the rite. This last line was the key to everything.

The circle skipped a beat but then hummed with the power of the asuria flowing in its channels, forming an energy web that sluggishly trailed Shuun's will.

It is very weak, he thought. Will it be enough?

Nervously, he left the circle. It seemed to hesitate but then hummed on.

"Shith," he called, summoning one of his pair of shedu. "Bring deska and lemmu for my refreshment. Quickly, I want to get started."

Shortly, Shith returned with the refreshments. The deska was foul and the lemmu uninspired. It seemed there was a time when the refreshments were more satisfying.

"What is on the agenda for this period?" Shuun asked.

"Master. The status of this refuge remains unchanged. Nothing at all from home."

"How long has it been?" he muttered to himself.

"Only three point zero zero four four three nine three three cycles, Master," Shith replied.

"Silence, you ninth-witted fool," Shuun snapped.

"Master," Divot cried. "We have a new subject."

"Are you certain?" he asked with excitement. He missed Eno, had searched the Codex Mystica for information on the man, but there was nothing. There was some information in the local histories, but the turmoil of the time made it sketchy at best. Since he'd come out of regeneration, there had been very little to do and none of it at all interesting.

"I put the parameters through the Codex Principia and checked the results repeatedly," the shedu explained.

"Give me the coordinates," Shuun commanded, entering the circle.

"Zero point zero," Divot began.

This was a three-space realm so the first coordinate was fixed and calibrated to zero point zero by convention.

"Two four four two eight four one point eight," Divot intoned, giving the first significant coordinate, "by two eight two zero seven five point zero by five zero seven seven three five one point four, standard units, refuge relative."

Shuun scrolled the viewer to the desired coordinates. A human figure walked down a dark street. Her coat, for this was a female, pulled tightly around her against the cutting wind that blew debris along the walkway.

Shuun launched the payload into the spacial interface and guided it to the destination.

"Infection … affirmative," Divot announced, checking his readouts.




Part I

If Wishes Were Fishes We'd All Cast Nets

Chapter One

Annika — In The Beginning

Crack!

The blow drove me right to the floor. On the way down, I clipped the edge of the table. It felt like my head had been split wide open. My vision swam, and I came close to blacking out, again. The last time I did that, he'd kicked me so hard he'd cracked a rib. I fought to remain conscious.

"Annika, you bitch," Harry screamed. "This is your fault and you know it. Why do you always have to piss me off like this?"

"Sorry baby. I don't mean to."

"Don't mean to?" he screamed again. "Then why is the kitchen a mess and no dinner?"

"I had to work late," I explained, trying not to put even a hint of whine or defiance in my voice — that would make him really mad. "I got here right before you did."

"You didn't call and ask if you could work late," he accused.

I had called and left a message, but I wasn't dumb enough to try to tell him that. He took my wallet from my purse and pulled out the money I'd got from cashing my paycheck.

"Four-hundred and thirty. Is that all?" He accused. "I'm taking two-thirty — the extra fifteen will cover the dinner you didn't cook for me tonight."

"But Harry," I began.

"But Harry what?" He whirled on me.

I was going to try to explain that there were bills that needed paying, but he was in no state to listen. When he calms down, I can talk to him and get some back. If he doesn't lose it all playing cards.

"Nothing."

"That's right, nothing," he declared, shrugging on his coat. "I'll be back later … maybe."

He slammed the door on his way out. I got to my feet and my vision swam. I made my way into the bathroom. The blood was streaming down the side of my head. The sight of it made me woozy. Overwhelming darkness closed in. I staggered, twisted on my feet and saw the edge of the tub rushing up at my face.

Crack!


"No," Shuun groaned. "We just acquired her. We can not lose her so soon."

"But there's nothing we can do," Shith complained. "The circle is too weak for remote regeneration. You could insert a regeneration payload, but the subject will terminate before it can do anything."

"Fetch the payload I have been building on the work-bench and the physical upgrade we used on Hoch," Shuun ordered.

Divot raced to comply. "You are moving too fast," Shith warned. "The Principia would not condone your actions."

"Silence!" he ordered and lashed his servant with a withering glare.

Divot returned and Shuun accepted the two items. The interface was already opened, so the first payload made it to the subject easily and went operational immediately. He jumped the second one out before it made destination and found a suitable location for it to do its job.

The local technology was still primitive, but it had changed a great deal since the days of Eno Hoch. Shuun, in abject boredom, had spent time looking at the changes and tinkering with ways they might be put to use.

He followed the signals his device generated to a busy room where they activated another much cruder machine before which a figure sat.

"Nine one one, what's your emergency?" the human said into the speaking device clipped to her face.

It took almost a full micro-cycle to track down the proper location references and generate the proper waveforms. Shuun relayed them through his device to the one the human was using.

"Annika Spurling who resides at 19,928 North Manitoba Avenue, apartment 12, is suffering from a terminal brain injury. She is unconscious and will be unable to answer her door. You have eighteen minutes and thirty-seven seconds to get her help. Hurry!"


Beep.…

Beep.…

Beep.…

Thirst. Incredible thirst.

"Water," I gasped.

"Oh, good, Ms. Spurling," a man's voice. "I'll get a nurse."

The beeping was coming from some kind of monitor beside the bed. I'm in the hospital.

"Owwww," I tried to sit up and the pain stabbing in my head was incredible. Then the nausea rolled me around like an unexpected breaker. The pain in my head intensified with the exertion of the retching.

"Sit back. Breathe. Relax. It will pass," the nurse said, holding my head and settling it slowly and gently back down on the pillow. "Drink." She held a plastic cup with a straw for me.

"What happened to me?" I asked after I'd sipped.

"I was hoping you could tell us, Ms. Spurling," the man said, showing me a badge. "I'm detective Serna. The injury to your face came from the fall you had in your bathroom, but the other one looks like assault."

"All I remember is that we had a fight. I made him angry and he hit me. After he left. I got dizzy. That's all I remember, but I must have fallen."

"You have a concussion from the fall," Serna explained. "Your boyfriend" — he checked his notes — "Harry Wilkes could be considered the proximate cause of that event if you want us to press charges. That first blow caused the fall, and the first injury made the second one much worse."

"No," I sighed. "I don't want to press charges." I can't put Harry in jail.

He looked at me a moment. I could tell that he was disappointed, but not surprised at my decision.

"Do you know who made the 911 call?" he asked.

"No. Why?"

"It's odd. It seems to have come from a vacant house across town. The owners have been out of the country for a week. We sent a car to the house and it's locked tight."

"That is odd. Could that just be a mistake?"

"Must be. The tech-boys must have screwed up. There's another odd thing. Your neighbors think you are in an abusive relationship, but the doctors didn't find any evidence when we asked them to look a little while ago."

"I'm not. We just fight sometimes, like all couples."

"Did you know that you arrested on the way to the hospital? The paramedics had to shock your heart to restart it."

"I didn't know."

"The doctors didn't expect you to regain consciousness so soon, but here you are. Awake. You look like you feel much better."

I did. I felt much improved in just the last few minutes. "I guess it's just not as serious as they thought."

"They tell me it was touch-and-go yesterday."

"Yesterday. I've been here since yesterday? What time is it?" I asked, sitting up with no trouble this time. "I've got to be at work at nine."

"You missed it. It's three in the afternoon."

"Great," I groaned and slumped back down on the pillow. I'd missed so much work last month with the broken ribs that my boss said if I missed any this month I'd be fired. He'd even called me in on a Saturday, the prick. I've lost my job and a day in the hospital is going to cost me thousands of dollars that I just don't have. And, I couldn't call Harry, so he's going to be really pissed.

* * *

"You can't keep me here," I complained to the nurse, as I opened the closet. The only things in there were my shoes. "Where are my clothes?"

"They didn't survive the paramedics and E.R. docs," she said.

"Well, what am I going to wear?"

"I'll give you some scrubs."

For an hour after Detective Serna left, I'd tried to relax but all I could think about was the hospital bill piling up like the National Debt. I just don't feel bad enough to stay here.

"Just wait and talk to the doctor," the nurse urged when she returned. "He'll be here any minute."

"I just can't afford to stay here and, anyway, I feel fine."

"Okay," she sighed. "Go to the discharge desk." She gave me directions.

* * *

A.M.A. stands for 'Against Medical Advice.' They insisted I wait for the hospital lawyer, but I told them I wouldn't. The paper I signed waved my right to hold the hospital responsible should I suffer any complications from my injuries or from their treatment of them. It was all drearily legal and confusing.

The bill came to thirty-two-hundred, fifty-two dollars, and sixty-five cents. About seventeen hundred for the hospital room, a thousand for the MRIs and X-rays, the rest was incidentals. I could blow it off, but that would wreck my credit and that was none too stellar as it was.

I have no money for a phone call or even the bus, I realized as I stepped out onto the street. It's six miles back to my place and it's freezing cold. I started walking, and very quickly I was not cold at all. The people I passed were all wearing their winter coats against the January chill. They looked at me strangely in my light-weight blue-green short-sleeved scrubs. I looked in the store windows as I passed, longing for all the things that would be forever out of my reach. I caught my own reflection in the window — medium height, neither apple or pear shaped, bust and hips both too small, tummy too big, stringy, dirty blond hair without much body or high-light. Nothing to attract any positive attention from anyone — except my face. I turned back up the street and saw an attractive woman strutting toward me in knee-high spike heeled boots. Her long leather coat flared open around her hips and legs showing short skirt, tight knit blouse and nylon encased legs. She had gorgeous red hair and wore a broad-brimmed hat.

My face is prettier than hers, I thought.

It was not a boast. I had been told that my oval shaped face was perfect for creating any look. My cheekbones were neither high enough to give me a hard, sharp look, nor so flat as to leave me moon-faced. My nose was straight and neither short and perky nor long and witchy but "just right". Generous lips, and large, azure eyes with heavy lids gave me a sexy, come hither look that was irresistible to certain kinds of men. Mostly bad men.

Krystal, my best-friend, said to me more than once, "Dump that creep of a boyfriend of yours. I'll help you make up that gorgeous face and we'll go clubbing. There's a better guy out there for you, and you can't find him, or him you, as long as Harry-the-loser is around."

The woman strutted past me, and I turned to watch her go.

I wish my body looked as good as hers, I thought.


"I do not think we need to put that through the Codex," Shith laughed. "We have heard that request before."

Shuun removed the payload from the rack of standard packages beside the circle and sent it through the interface. It would slowly align her body morphology with her desired body image. Shuun learned long ago that humans could adapt to almost anything as long as it did not happen too fast.


I turned away from the woman, and as I did a wave of dizziness flooded through me.

I hope I haven't made a mistake leaving the hospital.




Chapter Two

First Nadir

When I got home at five-thirty — only a little earlier than usual — there was no sign of Harry. Since I didn't have my keys, I had to get the building manager to let me in. I put a lasagna from the freezer in the oven and set the timer to switch off in an hour. It was already cooked, something I'd prepared a few weeks ago against the need for an easy dinner.

I'll make a salad. Perhaps I can get to the bakery for some bread and maybe the liquor store for a nice bottle of wine.

Then I remembered the hospital bill in my pocket and my lost job. An unbearable wave of sadness settled over me like a lead blanket, and tears streamed down my cheeks. I dragged myself to the bathroom for a tissue to dab my eyes and blow my nose.

"Oh! My god!" I said aloud.

There was a huge puddle of nearly dried blood on the floor. A few flies were having a party in the mess and the metallic smell invaded my nostrils. I barfed my fifty-nine dollar hospital lunch into the wastebasket and slumped to the floor in the hall. I hugged my knees to my chest and rocked back and forth until, eventually, the tears stopped. Harry's got those Quaaludes in the bedroom and a bottle of Scotch in the kitchen. That ought to just about do it, I thought and got myself up to gather the means to put myself out of my misery.


"Master. Come quickly," Divot cried.

Shuun hurried to the circle. "What is it?"

"Annika's functions are critically low," Divot said, indicating the readings.

"Why?" Shuun muttered, and routed body chemistry information from the viewer into the Codex Principia.

"There are two toxins," Divot asserted. "She just consumed refreshment, they must have come from there."

"The first one," Shuun said, "C16H14N2O, is not in the Codex, but the other one, C2H5OH, is common. Consult the Codex for a neutralization for the new toxin, Divot." Humans commonly consumed the second toxin recreationally. Shuun had seen subjects before that had caused premature termination by doing so. Long ago he had developed a countermeasure and he deployed that into Annika's system. Shuun did not like the balance of her neuro-chemicals. Those sorts of readings were often associated with self-termination and this might be an example of that.

"Neutralization found, Master," Divot said and routed the information to Shuun's workbench.

"Complicated, but it should work," Shuun stated, and started building the payload. After several micro-cycles of hard work, the toxin neutralization had been constructed. Shuun took a few extra micro-cycles to add something to regulate her neuro-chemicals and sent the second payload through the interface.


"What in the hell did you do with my pills?" Harry screamed into my face.

I was dangling from his hands by the front of the blue-green scrubs. He'd yanked me up off the couch and was shaking me.

I'm supposed to be dead, I thought. Why am I not dead? Fuck.

I'd consumed all ten of the blue-and-green capsules from the bottle I'd taken from Harry's stash in the bedroom and downed the remaining half-bottle of Scotch I'd got from the kitchen. The clock on the wall behind Harry showed that I was only forty-five minutes into my suicide attempt — unless it was tomorrow.

I briefly considered, and rejected, the idea that I was dead, dead and in hell, reasoning that, for it to be my hell, then of course, Harry would have to be there too.

I'm not even drunk. Why? Why? Dear god, can't you cut a girl a break?

Harry shook me so hard that it rattled my spine.…


Shuun checked the data in the viewer. "Those changes in acceleration look alarming. Are you sure that is not recreation of some kind?"

"I do not think so, Master," Shith said. "The one called Harry Wilkes has a history of damaging Annika. That is what the law-enforcement unit said. I think he is doing it again."

"I will not have it," Shuun said and dipped into Annika's mind.

I wanted to be dead, she thought. Pretty soon, I will be.

Shuun could feel the trickle of her neurochemical responses to danger. He flicked them into a more excited state.

I wanted to be dead, but not at his hands, Annika thought, getting angry now. I wish I could remember what I'd learned in that class at the Y.

Shuun did not know what the 'Y' was. Some kind of combat training school he hoped. He felt the weak neural impulse trying to activate the memories and punched it.


… and for the first time, ever, I got mad. Not miffed, or ruffled, not even pissed-off. I got mad as in crazy, insane, Lorena Bobbitt cut-off-his-dick mad. I boxed his ears — I'd learned that in the self-defense class. And besides, they were right there. He dropped me and I landed on the floor as neatly as a gymnast nailing a dismount. His hands were up to his head and now his balls were just right there, too. I kicked him squarely in the crotch. The blow lifted him off the floor. He landed, slumped on the ground, curled into a fetal position. I pulled his wallet out of his back pocket and opened it up.

Eighteen dollars? Not much help in the grand scheme.

I took it all. It wouldn't let me pay-off the hospital bill, but it felt great to be taking money from him for a change.

"There's a lasagna in the oven. Make your own damn salad. I won't be back tonight. Tomorrow when I do get back, that mess in the bathroom better be gone, or you better be gone."

I grabbed my over-night bag from the closet, stuffed in my best fitting fat-girl dress, a pair of dancing shoes that I'd never taken for a spin, and an outfit for job hunting tomorrow. I slung my faux-leather coat around my shoulders as I stepped over Harry — still noisily unrecovered — and out the door. Going down the stairs in my blue-green scrubs, I punched a button on my cell. For someone who just tried to off myself, I'm not doing that bad. Getting some back on Harry has really lifted my spirits.

"Hi Krystal. Today, I left the hospital A.M.A., lost my job, and kicked the crap out of Harry. I thought I'd like to celebrate by going dancing. Do you think we could get into Dance 105 tonight?"